Dear friends and watchers.
First of all, I wanna tell you something.
You all have been very special to me through those tree years. Each one of you. You made me rise and shine, you made me a better person, you made me an artist that I am today. I can't thank you enough, and I'll never be able. But seriously, thank you.
I guess you all know about that one person that I can no longer see or talk to. Well, many of you do.
Truth is, she's been my everything. And I lost her. I lost the battle. I gave everything I had to her, but that everything wasn't enough. And now, I have nothing left. And I'm trying keep myself together as hard as I can. And it IS hard. I don't know how much longer I will last.
Yesterday, I was really close to commiting a suicide. But that one consious part of me said NO. And I listened. There are too many people who care about me, and I couldn't do that to them.
I've been self-hurting, physically and mentally for too long. One day almost broke my hand, the other broke the door of my closet. My hair started falling off again. All because of the cage I'm in. And the only person that could set me free gave up on me.
I'm really fighting this. Mostly this is a fight with myself, for not falling on the hard ground. And that is why I thank you, guys. You kept me up. You all kept me alive. I'm sure most of you aren't aware of that, but yes, you did. I love each one of you.
I'm going to be inactive. I might come back tomorrow. In three days,in a month or a year. I can't tell for sure.
Thanks to anyone who read this.